Easter

Today was Easter and I guess it was a good one.  I followed the kids around as they hunted for eggs then daddy cooked breakfast.  For some reason Evelyn didn't want to make the monkey bread.  after breakfast I played with the kids and cleaned up a little.  Jason took a deserved nap.  At the end of it I was getting frustrated and took one of my meds then Jason woke up.  I put the laundry away and lied down and cried until I fell asleep.

Once I got up I helped finish up lunch by bringing them meat and cheese. then grandpa was here to take us all to the park.  The kids went crazy at the park and had a great time though I miss chasing them around like a loonatic I just didn't have it in me.

Next we went to grandma's and grandpa's to find nickles which was interesting and ended in hot/cold then Grandma just pointing out the hidden nickles for the last two. Perhaps William is a bit young yet.

We had a good time outside then watched two dora's.  Once daddy was there it was outside time again followed quickly by dinner.  I had a glass of wine which may have been a mistake.  I cleared the dishes and as mom cleaned up the kitchen I sat on the back porch listening to William and Evelyn laugh which brought me to tears,  Will I always wonder what the sound of Christopher and Michale's laugh would have sounded like.  or what kind of temperament they would have?

Jason was in a hurry to leave when he discovered me crying but the kids were having a ton of fun.  So I cleaned up a little and played with them.  It helped a little.  Now I've taken more medication which will take the feeling away. I'm not sure it is for the best but it is what it is.  I need to get back to work which will be a mess in and of it's self.