Grandpa G

Today when I got home from work Evelyn and I were playing outside before coming in to see daddy when daddy stepped out side and said he needed to talk to me quickly. The first thing that went through my mind was the hope that he was just going to say I was spending too much money on food latley (he does all the shopping but I go in the morning sometimes after I drop off Evelyn if i "need" anything). We have talked about budgeting but have not set anything up... I spent $40 this week - though how he would have known already is beyond me. I really wanted this to be the case and tried to deny myself the truth when I picked up Evelyn to bring her inside. She was unhappy so we went back out for a little while and Jason told me - Grandpa was not doing well.

Apparently he was not doing quite as well as I believed. Last night he stopped breathing and they put him on oxygen because they could not get a hold of anyone which he didn't want, but this gives the family time to get there. they are supposed to take him off of the oxygen after Judith gets there. I wanted to drive down tonight and Jason was willing but by the time we got Evelyn feed and to a point where we could consider packing it was late. We wouldn't have left till 8 putting us there at 3 or so. I think tomorrow will be spent packing and getting ready to go then leaving at 6:30pm so Evelyn can sleep most of the way. I want to go now and I want to see him but we just can't come tonight. It has been a rough afternoon and is likely to not get much better.

I just keep hoping for a miracle though it is selfish of me but I can't help it.