The layoffs are over.

At long last the layoffs that we have been so worried about are over. Jason survived with his job intact - unfortunately not all of the people that he worked with and were friends with were so lucky. There are two that I know that got laid off. I hope they both find something quickly. It is weird to feel so relieved and happy yet sad at the same time.

Now to find a house.

Week 15 then and now (and revival of the fruit)

This week's fruit...



My baby is a naval orange! At 4.0 inches and 2.5 ounces the baby is continuing to grow towards normal proportions, the legs now out measure the arms and all four limbs have functional joints. The baby is squirming, wiggling like crazy in the womb. I have even felt him/her a few times!

Chineese food.

Tonight Jason surprised me with Chinese food for dinner. He ordered broccoli with garlic sauce which was great but didn't have tofu. and I wanted tofu. since J hadn't ordered anything for himself he decided to go back out and get us both something else. when I got my dish i started to eat it when I noticed that there was pork in it. They served my vegetarian dish with pork fried rice. well the dish wasn't great anyway and I'm a little upset at finding out that they were washing a girl's hair in the sink at the restaurant really we will not be going back there we have had too many issues and the hair thing is just gross to me (though Jason said it was in the employee sink - not the kitchen). Still EWWWWW. Jason will be eating my secound dinner.

House hunting

So we found two houses to look at and J still has yet to call the Realtor to set it up. We discussed it on Friday and he said he would call Friday night - and I wonder why we are having such issues Oh well I have to keep hoping that it will work out. and If we wait until after the tax break the housing prices will fall - unfortunately that means ours will likely go down too. I'm tempted to look into renting for a little while until the prices rebound but the neighbor had such a bad experience. Sigh.

Moving Baby!

Today I felt the baby move for the first time. I'm so excited. (s)he moved twice and though I know I won't be feeling the movement regularly I for a little while it was nice to feel!

And we're walking

Tonight I took advantage of the nice weather for a short walk. I'm glad that the weather is getting warmer and it is getting lighter at night so that I can start walking at night. I figure that I will stick with walking at least and it's time to dump the gym. I'll get back there eventually well not the same one...

Sun!

The sun has come out in Rochester and boy have I missed it! It is still a little chilly but Evelyn and I are enjoying our time out side in the evenings! It is fun when the dogs walk by and she gets excited! It is so fun to watch her play :) I can't wait for this weekend when I hope we will be outside (when I am not cleaning!).

Today was a rough day at work I got a headache half way through the day and had trouble concentrating for the rest of the day. Thankfully I managed to get work done regardless but I was so glad when 5 came around! Then we got home and had Evelyn's new toy and she was so excited, her happiness helped me get through the rest of the evening. I'm sure taking my contacts out helped too.

Baby bee!

Today was the secound ultrasound and since I for got a cd you will have to wait for a picture for a few days. It was nice to see that (s)he is doing well and was pretty frisky! We heard a strong heartbeat and saw all fingers and toes well apendeges anyway. The next ultrasound is in 7 weeks - and time is flying! I can't believe how fast the pregnancy is going. I'm 13 weeks already!

The bad cop.

It is clear to me already that I am going to be the bad cop in out kids lives. I'm the one that is going try to keep Jason from giving them a lot of sweets. I'm going to have to fight him to get them to bed on time. with the time change J has wanted and tried to get Evelyn's bed time moved back. He likes that she is sleeping in more which I can't say I dislike and she is having trouble going to sleep she keeps playing at night making it hard to put her down at her bed time. I have a feeling that I am going to have a hard time being the bad cop all the time but there is no way J is going to do it!

Back to the grind.

today was a long day. one of our CO detectors went off at 2 am and I had trouble going back to sleep. Thankfully Evelyn slept through it. So despite hitting snooze several times (I need to learn that this always makes it worse) I was exhausted when I got up. I had trouble concentrating at work and have so much to do it is almost overwhelming (how did I get back to it after leaving for 3 months!) and I had some Dr's apt to check on. Thankfully Evelyn's appointment is this Friday morning so we didn't miss it and we don't need to worry about getting in sooner. And I have an ultrasound on Wednesday that I forgot about with everything that happened in the last two weeks. I will be happy to see the baby again and I need happy...

More ear stuff

Today we took Evelyn to the doctor to check out her ears. She has not had a fever but has not been sleeping well and has been poking at her ears like crazy. The doctor looked in and one ear was fine but the left the tube seemed to be off kilter and the ear had a pocket of puss in it. they didn't want to give her drops because the tube looked so funny so more oral antibiotics, at least she likes them. it was also recommended that we see Dr Mulburry sooner rather than later so we need to call and see when that appointment is and maybe make it sooner if it is still far away - I hope I didn't miss it last week...

Poor Evelyn has had her schedule off all week though she did very well despite it. I have been off as well and don't feel like I have been giving her what she needs. at least she has dad. tonight she had her medicine and some Motrin so hopefully she will sleep - she did have a little trouble going down maybe because of the time change. Tomorrow it will be back to daycare and the routine schedule.

Home again

Well we are back in Rochester after a long drive. Evelyn did ok and I learned that she really does better traveling while awake - she does not seem to sleep for more than 2 hours in the car then wakes up screaming. So next time we will go during the day and just plan on stopping a lot. I really hope we fly to Indy next time or break up the trip to 2 days... the trip to MO is going to be long even by plane (though worth it). She had a rough night but only woke up once after the room got warmed up.

Goodbye Grandpa.

Today was the memorial for grandpa and it was a rough day on many levels. I started out getting Evelyn up and out for Jason to sleep in and took her to mom and dad's room so they could play with her while I worked out for 30 min. She did NOT want to be left behind. they got her calmed down fairly quickly after I left but I hate leaving her when she cries.

I got to the gym and went 30 minutes on the elliptical that I usually love. Every minute was an eternity that I thought about Evelyn and how much I didn't want to be exercising (not like me at all). Mom and dad brought her down just at the end so she could have breakfast so we all ate.

we went to shower and get ready to head to grandma's house Evelyn was acting sleepy but we decided that we could make it to grandma's and everything would be ok - which almost worked. I went to check on her once she was put down because I thought that she was asleep. BIG mistake as she saw me and decided to cry so after a while we got her up to play sometimes that helps... long story short she didn't nap until J drove to the hotel to get ready so she only slept 45 min.

The memorial was a wonderful tribute to Grandpa. Mom did a wonderful eulogy and did a great job presenting it. I cried a lot as did Sarah. I am glad that we were sitting together. Evelyn did good for a little while but then got fussy and playful so Jason took her out to play in the reception room. As we left I noticed that there were lots of people in attendance. I was so happy to see his fellow boy scouts (and my brother) in their boy scout uniforms. Grandpa would have liked that as well. As we were leaving Sarah and I were talking to one of the scouts who was not in uniform who just happened to be in town he was a nice guy. The scouts had a mini impromptu meeting which I think grandpa would have liked as well. :)

We went down to dinner in the dining room though Evelyn ate nothing she was so tired and fussy she didn't want to look at the food. Jason who was not feeling very well played with her the entire time out in the hall. I felt bad but we ended up leaving right after dinner. This seems to be a new trend with us as we try to get Evelyn to bed and she was extra tired today. I hope she sleeps well tonight!

Trip to DC

Yesterday was a long day. I went to work and got lots done though my mind was not into it. I must have looked bad because when I went to pick up Evelyn they asked what was wrong...

After I picked up Evelyn from daycare and got her home we fed her and tried to give her some exercise. After gathering up everything and getting in the car we didn't actually leave for DC until about 6:30 (boy am I glad that we prepacked). The drive was long though Evelyn seemed to sleep pretty well. She woke up every few hours and fussed but usually just needed mommy to stroke her cheek or to hold mommies finger and she went right back to sleep.

She woke up again right before we got to the hotel at midnight and would not go back down none of the tricks were working but at least we were here. I was a little worried that she would not even go back down in the hotel room. but thankfully she went right down and even seemed happy to get into her pack and play. Really I'm guessing it is more comfortable than the car seat for sleeping...

She slept until 5:30am and fussed a little then went back to sleep until 7:30. I tried to get us both up and out with out disturbing Jason but did not quite manage it though he did stay in bed for a little while. Breakfast was ok she ate pretty well considering what she has been eating lately and even got a treat of honey nut cheerios (once she saw cheerios she had to have them) there was no saying "no".

After breakfast we went to see Grandma who is doing remarkably well - at least from what I can tell. For me it was a rough day though having Evelyn as a distraction seemed to help quite a bit. Though it was hard to see Grandpa's chair empty with the word puzzle out like he was going to come back and finish it. Or to not have him snoring in the chair as he had done more frequently on our last visits... I almost cried several times but managed not to. As hard as it is I'm so glad to be here with the family and give what I can.

Once we left it must have caught up with me because I cried like a baby the whole way to the hotel. Getting Evelyn ready for bed grounded me again for a little while but I am still feeling pretty low though I keep trying to think of all the wonderful memories that I have.

It was a long trip but I am so glad to be here...

Another day.

The memorial has not yet been scheduled and though I want to go be with the family I doubt I can contribute down there and I know J is not anxious to head down. It is hard with Evelyn not feeling so well and at this point I am just about numb. I know it will hit me again when I am with everyone else but for right now I just can't cry anymore. Tomorrow I go to work and try to convince Jason that we (or I) will be better off if we drive down 2 nights before the service so when we get in at 12 (I really want to drive while Evelyn is asleep) we can have G/G Kidd watch Evelyn when she gets up at 6 if they are willing and we have a day to recuperate before the service. We shall see. Hopefully Evelyn will be completely better tomorrow!

Goodbye Grandpa

You will be greatly missed. I can't even begin to describe the numerous ways you impacted my life. I am thankful for all that you did and all that you taught me. I know you are in a better place now but it still hurts.

Grandpa G

Today when I got home from work Evelyn and I were playing outside before coming in to see daddy when daddy stepped out side and said he needed to talk to me quickly. The first thing that went through my mind was the hope that he was just going to say I was spending too much money on food latley (he does all the shopping but I go in the morning sometimes after I drop off Evelyn if i "need" anything). We have talked about budgeting but have not set anything up... I spent $40 this week - though how he would have known already is beyond me. I really wanted this to be the case and tried to deny myself the truth when I picked up Evelyn to bring her inside. She was unhappy so we went back out for a little while and Jason told me - Grandpa was not doing well.

Apparently he was not doing quite as well as I believed. Last night he stopped breathing and they put him on oxygen because they could not get a hold of anyone which he didn't want, but this gives the family time to get there. they are supposed to take him off of the oxygen after Judith gets there. I wanted to drive down tonight and Jason was willing but by the time we got Evelyn feed and to a point where we could consider packing it was late. We wouldn't have left till 8 putting us there at 3 or so. I think tomorrow will be spent packing and getting ready to go then leaving at 6:30pm so Evelyn can sleep most of the way. I want to go now and I want to see him but we just can't come tonight. It has been a rough afternoon and is likely to not get much better.

I just keep hoping for a miracle though it is selfish of me but I can't help it.

Grandpa

Grandpa is doing much better though he is still groggy. He is responding to the nurses and the doctor is pleased with his progress. I don't know if he is still in the ICU - I forgot to ask but he was yesterday and I assume he has not yet been moved. Grandma has lots going on but is also doing well. I am glad that I have been able to talk to her so much this week!

Well Visit

Today Evelyn had her well visit for 15 months. She did well but fussed when I undressed her and CRIED when I put her on the scale. She did fairly well but we were both happy when daddy showed up with dinner. She made a mess of the paper (some of it even went through -oopse.

Dr Almay asked if we had any questions...
Me: Are you still accepting new patients?
Dr A: yes I am
pause
Dr A: Wait are you pregnant?
Me: yes :)

Oh and this morning Evelyn said banana - we will see if she repeats it again it's kind of a big word for a first word (other than mama and dada). Otherwise it is a big coincidence...

Get Well Soon Grandpa G!

Grandpa G fell on Sunday or was it monday? hitting his head pretty good. He ended up in the hospital and though he recovered enough to not need emergency surgery he had surgery scheduled today. This I found out today while I was at work. I had a bit of a hard time concentrating on everything but was leaving early anyway to get Evelyn to her appointment so I checked in on the surgery. Every thing went well he was in and out with no problems. As of tonight he was still out of it but doing well. The rest we have to wait for so more news to follow.

Week 11!

This week the baby is a lime! (S)he now weighs .25 oz and is 1.6in long. Your fetus currently enjoys a 1:1 ratio between body and head, and has skin so transparent that blood vessels show right through. But, fingers and toes are no longer webbed, and hair follicles, tooth buds and nail beds are forming -- setting up a significantly more attractive future.