Today was my first Ultrasound and we got to take a peek at my little baby.  I was excited but very nervous.  When the tech put the baby on the screen she pointed out the heartbeat which I could barely see so that was a good thing as (s)he was not moving at all either.  The tech took a few measurements and pointed out the important things such as head, arms and legs.  I asked why the baby was not moving.  It really worried me.  Well baby was listening and decided to start moving after I asked (thanks sweetie) which made me feel better but (s)he settled down quickly.  The next Ultrasound we should see more movement. 

The rest of the day has been a mix of emotions for me and I am drained.  I am excited that I am pregnant and relieved that (s)he is in there alone but also disappointed that I will not be having twins.  The strength of my emotions have caught me off guard and I have been thinking of Christopher and Michael a lot today and worrying about this little one and have cried a few times/  I just need some time for everything to settle in I guess..  I have a lot more confidence in this pregnancy as (s)he is one baby instead of a multiple  but I was so looking forward to twins.  I guess I didn't realize just how much I still wanted two.
Just another manifestation of my grief I suppose.  I just hope Evelyn and William are not disappointed that there will not be two babies because I know that that would be very hard. 

This pregnancy has already been a crazy emotional experience but I love this little baby and can't wait to kiss his/her fingers and toes.