Week 11

Week 11 - This week (s)he is the size of a

(S) he is approximately 1.6 inches and 0.25 inches.  (s) he is starting to look more like a baby and is developing teeth buds, hair follicles and all kinds of fun stuff.

Total weight gain/loss: I am having trouble weighing myself this time.

Maternity clothes: Still hanging out in my regular clothing but avoiding jeans.

Stretch marks: Nothing new.

Sleep: Waking up to go to the bathroom and still need a lot.

Movement: To early.

Best moment this week: The Ultrasound.

Food cravings: Nothing really.

Symptoms: Gas and lots of it.  Still some cramping which has me worried.

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out: Still in.

What I miss: Picking up Evelyn and William and exercising.

What I am looking forward to: The next ultrasound and the dr's appointment.

Weekly Wisdom: Take it one day at a time.

Milestones: Our first ultrasound.

Feelings: Scared.

Today was my first Ultrasound and we got to take a peek at my little baby.  I was excited but very nervous.  When the tech put the baby on the screen she pointed out the heartbeat which I could barely see so that was a good thing as (s)he was not moving at all either.  The tech took a few measurements and pointed out the important things such as head, arms and legs.  I asked why the baby was not moving.  It really worried me.  Well baby was listening and decided to start moving after I asked (thanks sweetie) which made me feel better but (s)he settled down quickly.  The next Ultrasound we should see more movement. 

The rest of the day has been a mix of emotions for me and I am drained.  I am excited that I am pregnant and relieved that (s)he is in there alone but also disappointed that I will not be having twins.  The strength of my emotions have caught me off guard and I have been thinking of Christopher and Michael a lot today and worrying about this little one and have cried a few times/  I just need some time for everything to settle in I guess..  I have a lot more confidence in this pregnancy as (s)he is one baby instead of a multiple  but I was so looking forward to twins.  I guess I didn't realize just how much I still wanted two.
Just another manifestation of my grief I suppose.  I just hope Evelyn and William are not disappointed that there will not be two babies because I know that that would be very hard. 

This pregnancy has already been a crazy emotional experience but I love this little baby and can't wait to kiss his/her fingers and toes.

Eating habbits

I am eating way to much today.

Week 9

This week the baby is the size of a

and is officially a fetus!  (S)he is .9 inches and .07 oz.  I have to wonder where all this extra girth is coming from. 

Total weight gain/loss: 7 lbs already oh boy.

Maternity Clothes: No but only because I can wear leggings.  Must be because this is my 4th pregnancy.

Stretch marks: still just the old ones though I am sure they are coming.

Sleep: Still need a ton.

Best moment this week: Hard to say the nurses visit was good as it always seems to get things going-it feels like the beginning. And yet it was hard.

Movement: to early.

Food cravings: Nothing this week.


Symptoms: Still a little nausea and very tired.  moody and a little depressed.  Also still sensitive to smells.

Labor Signs: I should just leave this one or until the end.

Belly Button in or out: in but getting flatter.

What I miss: Picking up the kids and not worrying about getting kicked in the tummy on accident.

What I am looking forward to: Telling people.  I have a friend that is pregnant and it is hard not to tell her as she talks about her pregnancy.  honestly it is hard not to tell a lot of people.  Also making the "announcement" shirts.

Weekly Wisdom: Do not make fish sticks for dinner.  They were not to bad baking but after the smell got to me.


Milestones: The first trip to the OBGYN and having the blood work done.

Feelings: Anxious and Scared about the Ultrasound and excited.  I hope some of the anxiety will lift after it.

Wishing on stars

Today the night was clear so I took the kids to the back yard and they wished on the stars.  William wished for twins a boy and a girl.  Evelyn wished for two girls.   I think we are in trouble...

1 week from today, the ultra sound is one week from today.

Nurse Visit

Today was the nurse visit which was a mixed blessing. I had allot of anxiety going in and a few tears going through my history, honestly why can't they look that stuff up in my records?  But it was nice to have the first step done and have the ultra sounds scheduled.  The first ultra sound is also an appointment that I am both excited about and dreading.  I hope for a single baby and an easy pregnancy but also for the twins I lost,  Well not Michael and Christopher no one can replace them...  but twins.  Well the count down has begin and I will be happy either way I guess I just need to know and in some ways do not want to know.  I love my baby and just want him or her to be happy and healthy.

The current official due date is August 29th!

Slip of the toung

I picked up Dad and we took Evelyn and William to the JCC.  While we were there I asked dad of he wanted to go to lunch tomorrow.  We were talking about where to go and I mentioned Golden Dynasty which is a family favorite and said "Then if I bring the three of them (kids) William will be safe".  This greatly confused dad as he does not know about baby on the way and to be honest it is kind of an odd thing to say about a fetus anyway. And so he was like three? And I said " well I guess I am just jumping the gun then". I don't think he picked up on it though I will have to tell him soon.

Week 8

At about .63 inches and a whopping .04 oz - this week baby Hirsch is as big as a

This week baby will grow about a millimeter per day and is moving their arms and legs like crazy!  Baby's taste buds are now forming so I expect I will start getting odd cravings :)

Total weight gain/loss: I need a scale at home so i can weigh in on the weekends.

Maternity Clothes: not yet though some of my pants are uncomfortable.

Stretch marks: Just the old ones.

Sleep: I love to sleep!

Best moment this week:

Movement: Not Yet.

Food cravings: Greek Salad, Ice Cream (not at the same time)

Symptoms: Nausea is all but gone now as long as I eat often enough.  I am still exhausted and need a ton of sleep. I am also gassy and bloated.

Labor Signs: none yet.

Belly Button in or out: in

What I miss: The care free pregnancy where I was not so worried about everything.

What I am looking forward to: Telling Sue and Joe!

Weekly Wisdom: Being a pregnant woman is like being a newborn; all you want to do is eat, sleep and snuggle!

Milestones: Nurses visit is on Monday.  Although I am really looking forward to the doctor's appointment!

Feelings: Happy and anxious as I start to tell people.  But I know I need a support system.

Are you pregnant?

Today when I picked up the kids from daycare one Shelly ( one of the teachers asked if I was pregnant). I asked her why she would ask and she said one of the other parents asked her because William told their child that I was pregnant.  I don't know where he got that from our why he would tell his friend that.  I evaded the question but she persisted so she knows -oh well.

Baby in my belly

January 2014
Evelyn:  (climbing over me) you feel like you have a baby in your belly.
Me: would you like that?
Evelyn: Oh yes! (giggling)
Me: I bet you would.
Evelyn: I would because then I could sleep on your belly.
Me: I bet if you did that the baby would kick you!
Evelyn: (laughing) I wouldn't mind I think it would be funny!

How did she even know??!!

Feeling better

Today is the first day that I have had a break from the nausea/dull chest-heart burn pain.  after lunch 8 actually felt a bit more like myself though still a bit worried as my typical brief reprove may be just that brief but am glad to be feeling a little better.

Week 7!

Baby is the size of a

At . 51 inches and develops one bounded new brain cells per minute!  the kidneys are also developing along with the leg and arm joints.

Total weight gain/loss: have not weighed in.

Maternity Clothes:  there are definitely some pants that I do not like to wear.  and though I am not in maternity clothing yet I am thankful that leggings are in style.

Stretch marks: just the old ones.

Sleep: I need tons.

Best moment this week: Telling Aunt Sarah today :) It will be nice to have someone to talk to about things.

Movement: too early.

Food cravings: tons though not much stick: If I don't eat what I want right away I change my mind.  There are also lots of foods that I want to eat bit am afraid of the nausea.

Symptoms: Nausea though it is abating.  fatigue

Labor Signs: no

Belly Button in or out: in

What I miss: having energy, exercising

What I am looking forward to: I will probably start up some low intensity exercises after seeing the Dr.  Also telling the in-laws once J is back.

Weekly Wisdom: Take it one day at a time

Milestones: Telling people at least the Immediate family

Feelings: Some anxiety and Unease but excited I can't wait for the first doctors visit I hope it will help.

Week 6

Baby is the size of a

sweet pea! At about. 25 inches the baby's blood is starting to circulate and his or her face has started to develop.

Weight gain:  I will not know until I get to work Monday. (2lbs -already and so it begins). 

Maternity Clothes: I have to admit that I am uncomfortable in jeans and have been avoiding them I am glad leggings are in style though I do need more outfits.

Stretch Marks: Yes but they are old. Nothing new

Sleep: I need a ton and should be sleeping now.

Best Moment This Week:

Movement: No too early!

Food Cravings: Tortellini but most food I as I make out I start to feel nauseous.  I am still managing to eat and oddly eating has helped me to feel better.

Symptoms: Tired, nausea, irritability and hunger. Oddly I seem to be OK first thing in the morning it seems to be after I get up and moving that I get sick.

Gender: I don't know that I want to find out.

Bellybutton in or out: In

Best moment this week

What I miss: Being independent and not having to wait for J to carry things for me.  Good thing he has patients.

What I am looking forward to: The first Nurse visit.  I am trying to take this one step at a time to help relieve some of the anxiety.

Weekly Wisdom: Back up, take a deep breath and take it one step at a time.

Milestones:

Feelings:  Some anxiety but it is fairly well controlled.  I am excited and can't wait to tell people so their excitement can help me.
  I am tempted to tell someone so that I have someone to talk to about it.

Mommy's fragile...

Today I told William to be careful with mommy because I was fragile.  He told me that I was not fragile in fact people are only fragile if they have babies in their belly or of they have dead babies on their belly.  he asked me if the babies were still in me and I told him no.  He then drew the conclusion that I was not fragile.  I think we will have to tell these guys soon.