food is the enimy...

ok I know I have to eat but I have trouble doing it. I hope that this is short lived as it was last time - I can deal with the fatigue (though the house is a mess) but not being able to eat and the nausea sucks.

Freezing

Why am I destined to freeze - yes I know I married Jason. Seeing as though I used to come over when we first started dating and never take off my jacket I knew I would be cold at home. But I seem to keep warm enough at home (hot showers and warm blankets are great) but I freeze at work as well. I was hoping it would get better after we moved but it seems to have gotten worse. I can't even take off my winter jacket most days.

Week 6!

Growing like crazy, baby is starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks and chin. Those little hands and feet- still webbed like paddles- might wiggle by week's end, the heart is beating (almost twice as fast as yours!), and blood is starting to circulate. The baby is now approximately .25 inches!

oh the nausia

It is definitely worse this time around and though I have gained some of my recent weight loss back I have doubts that it will stay on if the nausea continues. last time I got sick once during the day but my morning sickness was confined mostly to the morning. This time it seems to just follow me through the day. I can only hope that it is as short lived as it was last time i think I can deal with this for a week anything longer and I may have to tell people especially if I start getting sick in the bathroom or even worse at my desk...

Oh the nausia...

This morning was not as bad as yesterday but I still had some issues. Dare I hope that it is getting better and I will only have one bad day this time around??!! I do seem to get a little more nauseous randomly throughout the day which is weird. The fatigue is also getting to me though I know it can't be more than a few more weeks. It is odd sleeping from 8:30 to 6:30 or even 8 depending on the day of the week. I hope Evelyn does well with the transition when it happens, I'll have to talk to the Dr next time we are in to see if there are anyways to make it easier on her. I'll admit I am nervous about that aspect of having another child though I'm sure it will work out.

Back to the gym.

Ok so today went a little better in that more people were wiping down their machines. but I ran into another pet peeve today that really went above and beyond. One of the men that was "exercising" decided to take a 20 min break just sitting on a machine chatting with a friend or business associate. I was planning on using said machine but decided I wanted to just keep going thinking he would eventually finish up or just get up and free up the machine - nope. I wasn't in the mood to start something so I ended up skipping the machine.

my parents suspect

or I think they do at any rate. Today I spent most of the day with them and aside from me being exhausted. I didn't drink the really great bottle of wine that dad opened to celebrate Jason's birthday. Last time they didn't think twice about me not drinking however I'm guessing this time they got it as if I had made the announcement - I could be wrong. Dad certainly didn't make a big deal about it and I'm not even sure if mom noticed. No I don't always drink but to not drink when they open a really good bottle... well that's the way things go. Mid Feb is my first Dr apt my first ultrasound should follow within a week or two then we can tell everyone! I can't wait to find the shirt for Evelyn that will help us make the announcement.

On another note I had morning sickness for the first time this morning. (Wonder if J still thinks it is psychosomatic?) last time it lasted a week I hope that this time will be no longer. I'm also thinking about the logistics of taking care of Evelyn while I am big. I hope not to have too many problems but I wonder how I am going to carry her...

Blood work

My blood work is all normal. I suppose the drop in weight is due to a change in my taste in food I certainly have not stopped eating so maybe I just changed what I ate with out realizing it. This is good news and I can stop worrying!

House hunting

Today during lunch Jason and I went to see three houses. One was not at all good it was too small (3 bedroom and one would only be fit for a nursery), The secound was a nice house however the bedrooms were split between the floors so once we had more than one child Evelyn would have to move upstairs alone. The last one was actually a great house. The list price is a little high for the neighborhood despite the fact that it will only need about 11K in work. The people selling have done a lot of great stuff to the house to raise the value. They just missed a few things. also the houses in the neighborhood have been selling undervalue. Dad asked what was wrong with the neighborhood making me wonder if we missed something other than it just being a buyers market. It could be that the estimates that I found were high. Once we find out about the layoffs we will have to decide if we want to pursue the house in the meantime we are keeping our options open and keep looking.

The Verdict

So my diet was about what the diatician said she thought it would be. She had a few suggestions for me for snacks (almonds and walnuts), bread with my breakfast on weekends, almond butter and a little more fruit. It seems they are upping the recommended intake for fruit for the new year. So I was thinking of making a mix to keep at my desk of nuts and dried fruit. So no worries with my diet. now i just have to wait for the blood work to come back and if it is good we can all stop worrying!

Week 5!

The embryo (looking kind of like a tadpole) is starting to form major organs (heart, kidney, liver, stomach) and systems (nervous, circulatory, digestive). Baby is .13 inches! Baby's presence in your uterus triggers production of hCG (the hormone detected by pregnancy tests)... which triggers production of other hormones like estrogen and progesterone... which trigger all those great symptoms you've probably been noticing!

blood work

So I called the doctor yesterday just to let her know what was going on and see what she thought was going on and she decided to order some blood work. I got it done today and now I'm curious to see what it looks like. I know she got a blood panel and TSH (thyroid) and something else. I have just about convinced myself that I did change my eating habits just not meaning to and that is why i'm loosing weight. Maybe my tastes just changed - random yes but nothing to worry about :)

The diatician could not see me today (not surprised as she is usually insanely busy on Tuesdays but will see me tomorrow instead. Wish me luck! As a bonus I started this week the same weight I was last week!

Planet Fitness

I finally made it into the gym. I joined planet fitness though I can't say that it will ever be my favorite gym.
1) I almost walked out right away due to the smell. I don't remember any other gym smelling like sweat quite like this one - I think that they need to work on their ventilation. It wasn't bad enough to scare me off so I signed up.
2) there was no tour of the gym - not that there is much of it. but sometimes here is the locker room is helpful.
3)The person that signed me up said it was a "beginners" gym - what a joke. they don't have anyone to show people how the machines work. As I was working out I ended up helping someone with the machine next to mine.
4) I think I saw 2-3 other people wipe down their weight machines - GROSS!
5) They have a button to push that looks like it lites up something if people grunt to loudly or drop weights - really? Okay I get that it is annoying but instead of warning the person and then quietly removing the offender you need to make a ruckus and disturb everyone?!
6) They don't have my favorite machine.

I'm sure I will be adding to this list. Oh well you get what you pay for...

So fast...

It seems like last time it took forever to get to the nurses appointment let alone the first doctors appointment. I called in to make the appointments this morning and go in to see the nurse on the 27th - that's just over a week away and the long awaited dr's appointment will be on the 17th. I'm sure that soon time will feel like it stopped again soon but in the mean time I am happy to focus on Evelyn, house hunting and my (our!) health.

So far other than being exhausted I have had no symptoms. Yippee for no morning sickness - lets hope it keeps up!

Lots of Grandparents!

Today daddy got up with me (well the secound time anyway) I woke up crying at around 5 but went back to sleep at 6 for an hour and a half. Daddy came into the room and we were both supper quiet - Mommy didn't hear us at all. The sleepy head came downstairs at 8:45! I had eaten french toast for breakfast, usually mommy says that i need to eat healthier at home because she doesn't think the food that I am given at daycare is that great. So i'm glad she slept in.

Then after mommy ate we skyped with Grandma and Grandpa Hirsch! Despite some technical difficulties we had a great time I even blew them a kiss! Then Grandpa Kidd came up to give mommy some advice and play with me. I managed to distract him with the more important task of playing with me. I was supper happy and playful but went down for a nap at 11:40 so I didn't get to play with him as much as I wanted to. As mommy was going to get me ready I put my arms out to grandpa so he put me down for the nap. I was such a good girl for him I didn't cry at all when they left my room!

Mommy tried to take me outside for a while after the nap but I just wasn't interested. I wouldn't walk around and just wanted her to carry me so she brought me back inside thinking I would have more fun playing indoors for today. we had a great time but I didn't eat a good snack so I was starving for dinner despite daddy's distractions. I ate ok then was ready for bed in no time. daddy said I wasn't acting sleepy but mommy insisted that i go to bed (meanie!) and after she read me two books she put me in the crib and I didn't even cry I just went to sleep. my eyes are so goopy mom is glad that we have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to get it checked out.

House hunting

Today Jason spent the day looking at houses so Evelyn and I stayed at home and played (when she wasn't sleeping). There were two that he liked so after I view the pictures I may actually go to see the houses. Part of me is excited to actually have prospects and the rest of me keeps telling myself not to get my hopes up. One of the houses that he likes and seems to be focused on has an odd layout I guess and is on a busier road (we are assuming as the road is stripped and connects two busier roads - though the roads intersect not to far up anyway). Despite this the house is in excellent condition for once and has a large back yard with a fenced in area so it may be ok. if we get the house I know part of me will be sad not to be in a "neighborhood" where she can just go and play with friends when she is older or ride her bike down the street. both of the houses are in Chili and I'm not sure how their schools are so I'll have to ask mom what she thinks.

After Jason got home from the store I made dinner (well the family portion anyway Jason made his steak). The risotto seems to be a hit and though it is not a quick dish I will keep it for the weekends and will stir in some chicken in a little bit for J and Evelyn. on another note I seem to be doing well with my food diary and think I am eating a TON! maybe I am eating more now that I am writing it down. which is the opposite of what I normally do...

Here comes #2

This morning I took a pregnancy test and it is official - I'm pregnant! I am looking forward to this pregnancy though I am a bit nervous remembering how tired I was during the last pregnancy then there is the fact that raising children gets harder exponentially or so it seems. Oh well so far so good though by my estimation I am probably 11 days a long. I will call the doctor on monday to set up my first appointment. Have I mentioned how excited I am...

Weight Loss

As my weight loss continues I still don't know why. At this point I have lost 10% of my body mass (in 5 months) and though most of it is fat (yippee!) some of it is muscle :(. so no more excuses I'm going to the gym. I'm also signing up for a soccer team but that will be more problematic with the weight loss as it is largely cardio.

I'll be honest I don't mind the weight loss at all (other than the muscle) and if I were trying I would be thrilled but the nutritionist was a little more worried than I would have liked mostly because this is completely unintentional and well there were a few more reasons that I won't get in to at the moment but she was as worried about the fat as the muscle due to my situation. So if I loose a few more pounds I have to go to the doctor. My ideal would be to gain about 5-10 pounds of muscle and not gain back the fat or failing that I would like to be stable where I am.

In the mean time I need to keep a food journal to bring to her on monday to see if I am really pigging out like I think I am. Now I have never done well with food journals because

1) I'm not good at estimating food intake and it's a pain to measure stuff out so often I think well I really don't want to bother so I don't eat.

2) I am very self conscious about what I eat especially when I think that I am constantly eating it doesn't matter how well I think I am eating.

3) I don't always want to admit to what I eat (we all have our shamefull secrets like the dark chocolate hidden at my desk)

4) Lets be honest I loose them unless they are on the computer and if they are I forget to do them... though this is only 3 days so I shouldn't loose it...

It is only a few days so I should manage to pull it off and still eat like "normal" wish me luck I really do need her to see what is really going on so she can give me better advice, nutritionist's are like doctors if you only give them part of the picture they give you crappy information. on the plus side I'm really looking forward to my omelet this weekend even though I have to write it down! In the mean time I hope this stabilizes soon as I really need new clothing.

Some things never change...

When we were little mom went into the bus station to look for something that one of us kids lost. She walked out of there with several pairs of gloves that Sarah, David and I had dropped and lost over the winter.

Some how even today I can't seem to hang on to my gloves. I just purchased a new pair of nice warm gloves and almost forgot to wear them today. Then as I was settling Evelyn in at daycare I dropped one of the gloves, which i didn't notice. The teacher picked it up for me and handed it over saving the day. then while picking up the munchkin I dropped it again and wasn't so lucky this time. I did end up noticing but by then we were outside and I didn't want to go back in.

Week 4!

In week 4, now safe in your womb, the ball of cells (blastocyst) splits in two, becoming the embryo and the placenta. The amniotic sac and fluid are forming around baby, and will act as a cushion for the next eight months!

The omelet

Ok so I really wanted an omelet but didn't have the veggies yesterday so I cut everything up last night and hopped that 1) I got up early enough to make it and 2) Evelyn slept in long enough for me to make it. Well part one went off with out a hitch i got it mostly made when she cried so I covered it up and turned the heat off figuring that it would finish cooking while I got her ready. As I was breast feeding her I got my first inclination that something was wrong as I reassured myself that I had turned off the heat. I should have gone downstairs at this point to check but no I trusted myself...

so I grabbed out her clothing and the smoke alarm went off, yup I forgot to turn off the heat. breakfast was ruined and I'm pretty sure I went to work smelling like burnt eggs though I tried to get out of the house as fast as I could. Sigh lesson learned - no fancy breakfast's on a weekday.

Junk.

I was just sitting here trying to catch up on blogging when i was hit with a craving for chocolate. Thinking to my self "dam I should have picked up a treat at wegman's" I went to the kitchen to scrounge up some chocolate chips or something, anything. What I found was a box of Samoas! the ones my parents gave me for Christmas and I forgot about. Boy am I glad I forgot they were here until now!

Thank yous and Holiday cards

At this point I should have all of the thank yous for Christmas done - I haven't even started. I have no excuse or at least no good one. I need to either start them or at the very least write a list of all the great gifts so that when I do get to it I will know what I am thanking people for! I will get them done this weekend I have to or it will drive me nuts.

The Holiday cards that I wanted to send out is just not going to happen J has not sent me the good picture and it seems stupid to get them out this late. This will be year two (or was it three) that we didn't get them out I am very disappointed - I guess I shouldn't be too surprised I still have only gotten half of Evelyn's birth announcements out.

Week 3!

In week 3, sperm meets egg, and voila: conception! Your little zygote sets off on a six-day trek through your fallopian tubes, dividing and redividing into identical cells as it travels to your uterus.

We are on our way to baby #2!!!!

Cooking

I'm making a debut in the kitchen again and am not doing such a bad job at it though I'm not sure Evelyn feels the same way as she didn't touch my lasagna. we shall see what she does with the rice cakes. Tonight after eating leftovers (Jason either didn't see the recipe on the counter or didn't get the hint to start the rice should he get home before me...) I put together a new recipe with help from Jason. He lovingly sliced the veggies and cooked the rice. so all i had to do is chop the veggies (my fault as I didn't realize it would work better). mix up the "rice cakes" and fry them. this means of course I was cooking when I normally would be finishing up cleaning but I think it was worth it. (yeah I snitched sue me). This stuff has a lot of texture and onion (mom would love it!), I'm not so sure Evelyn will like it. I'm thinking of serving it with either a meat which could go either way with her or veggie burgers which she does like sometimes. Maybe I'll luck out and with a little cheese she will gulp it down!

What a yucky day.

It was cold and miserable today. Though it may have finally stopped snowing. I enjoyed my time with Evelyn today but wasted nap time reading a book. Because of that I didn't get much done today. Jason and I are both exhausted - J from coughing all night in the den and me from getting up with evelyn at 3:30 and having a hard time getting back to sleep. It made for a long day. I still have a little bit of cleaning to do then I'm going to shower and hide in bed. Tomorrow I will use my lunch hour to purchase a baby gate as J said he was going to but has not yet done so. I've had enough and I know Evelyn will pitch a fit when she finds it up but I need the security of having it especially if J is going to travel again though he does not have any trips coming that I am aware of.

exhausted...

I don't really know why I am so tired (maybe the lack of exercise) but it is driving me crazy. Evelyn is sleeping well despite the fact that she is still sick getting up once in the night if that or maybe i just don't remember hearing her get up. We did have a great day - I even got to cook. I made white lasagna with mushrooms and spinach. I liked the way that it turned out though I think I would like to add carrots and maybe even tomatoes to the mix next time. It was a bit on the heavy side but since I ate a salad and not a big piece of the lasagna I figure it was still a healthy meal. unfortunately Evelyn didn't enjoy her mom's cooking too much I really wish she ate more. But she seems to be healthy and happy so she must not need it.

ok going to bed super early tonight so I can get a good nights sleep and shake this exhaustion...

Happy New Year!

And what a crazy year it has been. But I have some great ideas for resolutions!

I'm going back to the gym - no more excuses I'm signing up tomorrow. I can't wait!
I'm going to eat healthier. Usually I'm a good eater but have gotten out of the habit (and yes I really believe it is a habit) so I'm going to retrain myself to eat better and less.
(and no the above resolutions are not related to weight loss)
I'm going to bet better at blogging at least on Evelyn's page.
I'm going to try to keep the house cleaner and will be welcoming back the chore chart to keep me on track.

I even have a few for Jason and I...

a date night every two months (or less)
dinner at the table as a family every night
weekly walks - well this one may wait for better weather though we did enjoy one today!